Let’s Try This Again

Hi friends!

First of all, my apologies – it’s been way too long since I’ve last blogged on here. You’ve probably forgotten who I am; I’m Bella, and I’m a teen blogger from the United States. I was super active on WordPress from 2015-2016 but eventually just stopped posting. For a while, I was blogging on and off on another blog associated with my real name (shoutout to the 30 people who actually followed it), but I couldn’t capture the same spark that I had while blogging under my alias. It’s definitely a different feeling to be anonymous and not have to worry about being judged by people in my real life reading my thoughts and judging me.

Okay, so, a lot has changed since I’ve last been on. I’m not sixteen anymore; I’m eighteen now, and I turn nineteen at the end of the year. I graduated high school about two months ago and am off to university next month to pursue architecture/urban planning. (Remember all those posts I wrote about being stressed over college? It all worked out!) I’m still with my boyfriend, Rock; we’re coming up on two years this November. I’m still friends with some people from high school, but I’ve drifted apart from most of my old friends. My interests and hobbies have definitely changed. But overall, I like to think I’m still the same Bella.

I don’t even know what to talk about anymore. I had a list of post ideas in my drafts but most of them don’t even matter enough for me to talk about them anymore. I’ve grown a lot from the girl who posted on here two years ago. I’ve learned a lot about life and I hope that my change in attitude is reflected in my future posts.

I guess I’ll see you next time I blog, once inspiration strikes me. Here’s to hoping I don’t disappear for another two years.

– Bella

(PS: Thank you so much Gayle for nominating me for the Bloggers Support Bloggers Challenge! I will get on that post very soon.)


My “Summer Job”

Hey friends!

It’s been a while (a little bit over 2 weeks) since I’ve blogged last; I’m usually very busy during the summer season and this year was no exception, due to the fact that I’m currently doing summer school to get some extra credits. However, I’ll be done with summer school at the end of this week, which should hopefully free up some more time for me to blog.

Anyways, about a week ago, I came to the realization that I have a lot of crap. I have so many clothes I’ve only worn a couple times and aren’t interested in wearing again, as well as some other random unused things lying around, such as books and jewelry.

Normally, I donate my used items to my local Goodwill, but I’ve been seeing some of my friends try to sell their things online. I recently just bought a pair of shorts and a sweater from my neighbor, who opened up a shop on Instagram so she could sell to friends. I guess I was partially inspired by her; I wanted to have some extra pocket money so I wouldn’t have to use my mom’s money as much, and I can’t currently get a job due to my busy schedule.

I’ve been browsing the Internet lately and found this app/site that’s somewhat similar to Ebay, but easier to use. It’s called Mercari. I started listing a bunch of items on there, and I’ve gotten some pretty positive responses. I sold my first item on Saturday, which was pretty exciting!

Since starting up my little shop, I’ve been trying to advertise it as much as possible. I figured it wouldn’t help to advertise on the blog as well. If you are interested or if someone you know is interested in buying one of my listings, that would be very much appreciated!

Check out my shop here.

PS: I am in no way trying to force anyone to buy from me. I’m just trying to put my shop out there in hopes that someone is interested. 🙂

I’ll be back soon with a couple updatery posts, since a lot has happened since the last time I blogged. I also have some guest posts coming up, which is exciting because I’ve never had guest posts on my blog before!

See you later!

º Bella

How My Mom Met My Rock

Hey friends!

A couple posts ago, I wrote about how I met and got together with my boyfriend, Rock. I mentioned at the end that there was a continuation to our story so far, which is what happened after we started dating.

It wasn’t easy at first. I wasn’t sure if we would be able to make our relationship work, because of one major thing: my mom would not allow me to date until I finished school.

The entire first month of our relationship consisted of sneaking around and me lying to my mom. We would hang out every Sunday after church with our group of friends, and he would run over to my house and we would go on walks around my neighborhood. I could only Facetime him when my mom was at work and after my family had gone to sleep. I think my mom suspected something was up, because I was lying to her face. I’m not the best liar.

The guilt caught up to me at the beginning of this year, when I got dinner with Rock and our friends without telling my mom. She was worried because she had no idea where I went and she was livid when I got home, because it was late and I had school the next day. I felt bad for not being responsible and for lying to her about where I was and who I was with, so I broke down and told her that night between tears.

I didn’t tell her the entire truth; instead, I told her that I liked him and he liked me, and that we were hanging out, but not official. I asked her to be open to meeting him and hopefully letting us continue be friends. I was scared she wouldn’t like him and she wouldn’t let me be friends with him, because of how she’s reacted in the past when it comes to boys (*ahem* Peanut…), but her reaction surprised me. She told me she would meet him and that she was not going to forbid me from seeing him. She started dating when she was my age so she was very understanding about the whole situation; the only thing she wanted to make sure was that I kept my priorities in check.

She met him the following week and had a very positive first impression. She thought he was cute, kind, and a gentleman. She also knew his mom because our siblings go to school together, which helped a lot.

My school formal was coming up and the theme was Sadie’s, which is a girls ask guys dance. After my mom met Rock, I asked if she would let me take him to formal. She was hesitant at first, but eventually gave in after more small interactions with him. She also observed the way he treated me, which meant watching us when we saw each other and occasionally reading through our text messages. It never felt like she was suspicious and distrusting of me; she seemed genuinely excited to see us together because it was obvious he respected me and treated me well.

It was after formal that my mom finally gave us permission to become a couple. When I came home from the dance, she told me to tell her everything that happened that night. I told her how we had an amazing time, how he carried me when my feet got tired, lent me his coat when I was cold, and how he kissed my forehead at the end of the dance and thanked me for a great night. She admired how sweet he was and told me that if he made me happy, it made her happy as well.

My mom adores Rock now; she encourages me to invite him over to the house and to other places that we visit. She’s told all her friends about him, and they love him as well.

Being able to be open about my love life with my family has allowed me to become even closer with my mom. I’m lucky that she was understanding about the whole situation and allowed me to continue with my relationship; I know a lot of friends whose parents are stricter than mine.

However, even though my mom my mom is okay with me dating, she still has some requirements: that I keep my grades up and my priorities straight, and that I don’t “do stupid things”, if you know what I mean.

– Bella

The Music Tag

Hey friends!

I got nominated to do this tag by Jennie way back in September(!) and I planned to do it for the longest time, but just kept putting it off. I have a little bit of free time in between summer school assignments so I’ve decided to finally get around to it. 🙂

On a related note, I also got nominated to do a similar music tag by Selfie, but I can’t find her blog or the original post. Does anyone know what happened to her? Just curious.

  1. Which bands/artist do you own the most albums by? To be honest, I don’t really buy music anymore (I use Spotify Premium), but I feel like its probably between One Direction and Justin Bieber. I used to be obsessed with them!
  2. What was the last song you listened to? I’m currently listening to to Nights With You by MØ.
  3. What’s in your CD player right now? I don’t own a CD player.
  4. What was the last show you attended? Its been a while since I’ve attended a show… Probably Oh Wonder last September?
  5. What was the greatest show you’ve been to? One Direction’s WWA tour back in 2014! We got the tickets the day of the show and ended up being in row 3. We were so close to the stage and I got amazing videos of 4/5 of the boys.
  6. What was the worst show you’ve ever been to? I don’t think I’ve ever been to any bad gigs. It would probably be either Oh Wonder (but that’s only because I had to leave early, like in the middle of their set) or The 1975, because of the rude girls around me and the strong scent of weed.
  7. What is the most musically involved you have ever been? I sing, I know very basic piano notes, and I play the ukulele.
  8. What show are you looking forward to? Khalid is playing a free gig near me tomorrow, but my friends and I are still figuring out how to get to the venue. I’m looking forward to it even though I don’t know if I can go or not.
  9. What is your favorite band shirt? Out of all the ones I own, I like my 1975 one the most because its pretty fashionable and doesn’t have their faces plastered all over the front.
  10. What musician would you like to hang out with for a day? Harry Styles, without a doubt.
  11. Who is one musician or group you wish would make a comeback? One Direction! Its been a while since they’ve released music and my inner boyband-obsessed self is going through withdrawals.
  12. Who is one band/ artist you’ve never seen live but always wanted to? LANY or Khalid (hopefully that’ll change tomorrow)!
  13. Name four or more flawless albums. American Teen by Khalid, 1989 by Taylor Swift (her music is back on Spotify!), 24K Magic by Bruno Mars, kinda by LANY (its an EP but I’m still counting it), In the Lonely Hour by Sam Smith, and the Hamilton soundtrack.
  14. How many concerts have you been to in total? Too many to count! I want to say around 25?
  15. Who have you seen the most live? I’ve seen One Direction 4 times.
  16. What is your favorite movie soundtrack? The NERVE soundtrack is AMAZING. Also, I know this isn’t a movie but I want to mention the Hamilton soundtrack because it is my favorite and I’m very excited to see the musical later this year. 🙂
  17. What was your last musical ‘phase’ before you wisened up? I don’t really know, I’ve had a lot of phases but I still continue to go through them! I haven’t really wisened up yet lol.
  18. What is your ‘guilty pleasure’ that you hate to admit liking? Taylor Swift. She just seems very fake as a person, so that’s why I don’t really admit that I like her music. However, she’s an amazing songwriter.

Tags are always fun to write! Thanks again Jennie for the nomination. 🙂 Anyone who wants to do this tag is welcome to, I’m not tagging anyone specific.

I better get back to finishing my summer school assignments, so I’ll wrap this post up here. I’m taking precalculus over the summer to get ahead in math, and I’ve been swamped with work for that class lately, so I haven’t been able to catch up on blogs. I promise I’ll get caught up soon! If anyone wants me to check out their blog, let me know in the comments!

– Bella

How I Found My Rock

Hey friends!

If you read my last post marking my official (hopefully permanent) return to the blogosphere, you’ll recall that I was unsure what to write about in future posts. I have decided that the best way to get me back into the swing of things was to blog about how my life has been for the past six months or so.

My life has changed a lot in the past six months, with the biggest change being that I have a boyfriend now. Rock and I started dating in November of last year. I have decided to name him Rock because, as cliche as this sounds, he is my rock.

I knew Rock for about two years before we started dating. We met through church, because we got confirmed together. However, we never really talked during that time. He had a girlfriend, who I also knew, and he was pretty shy, only talking to his girlfriend and their group of friends.

I thought he hated me for a while, because he wouldn’t really talk to me and wouldn’t follow me back on Instagram whenever I requested. (I later found out this was because his girlfriend used his Instagram and it was actually her who would accept his follow requests.)

I remember actually talking to him for the first time last summer, when I sang in church choir. I showed up early to practice and one of the musicians “introduced” us to each other. I remember him giving me the biggest smile when he saw me when he told the musician that he knew me; it was the first time I had ever seen him smile that big – it was cute. We had a small awkward conversation, and a couple days after, he requested to follow me on Instagram.

The next couple of months had similar small interactions; we were acquaintances who only talked when we saw each other. This all changed in October, when I posted something on my Instagram story advertising my Snapchat, and he added me.

About two weeks after he added me, I posted a selfie on Snapchat with my glasses on, which I usually don’t do. He responded to it, saying that I looked different. Confused, I asked him what he meant, and he responded saying that I looked cute with glasses on (“and without, of course”). We then started talking about other random things, and he brought up the fact that we didn’t talk all that much in general, so I gave him my number and we started texting.

We would text everyday until really late at night; we never ran out of things to talk about. There was one night when we got really personal; I told him everything that happened between Forest and I. Rock was one of the very few people who knew the whole story, and he never judged me. He told me the truth about what happened between him and his ex-girlfriend.

The first time we hung out was a week after we started texting. I went to my church festival to hang out with Egg and Dino, who came late. Egg and I hung out by ourselves for a little while when I saw Rock, who kept looking over at us while talking to his friends. When Dino finally came, I separated from them (they were about to get back together and I didn’t want to third wheel) and hung out with Rock.

Rock said he had some extra tickets so we rode some rides together, including one I was absolutely terrified of. When the ride started moving, I freaked out and grabbed onto his arm. He laughed at me the whole time and told me after that it was cute how scared I got. We had a great time that day and I realized that night that I had actually fallen hard for him.

We would hang out a couple more times after that, including going on a walk together around my neighborhood. I would stop a few times to take pictures of the sunset. Later that night, he texted me saying that he kept looking at me when I was taking pictures and liked my smile a lot.

My church friends were very aware of what was happening between Rock and I. They knew we both liked each other, so they played matchmaker and made plans for our group to hang out so Rock and I could get together. We saw Fantastic Beasts and Where to Find Them (excellent film), and it was halfway during the movie when Rock turned to me and confessed.

“So by now I’m guessing you know I like you.”

Not going to lie, I had the biggest smile on my face when he said that. “I like you too,” I replied.

It was a bit random, but something I will never forget. After confessing, he put his arm around me and we cuddled for the remainder of the movie. When the movie ended, he turned to me and thanked me for a great day and for making him happy. I responded with a kiss on his cheek. Then he kissed my forehead.

We’ve been going strong for seven months now, and I can honestly say these have been the happiest seven months of my life. I used to be scared of falling in love (I still am, sometimes), but Rock makes it seem less scary. He makes me the happiest and luckiest girl in the world. I can rely on him and trust him with anything.

There’s so much more to this story, but I figured I would stop here because it is getting a bit long. Thanks for reading and see you soon!



Hey friends!

I kept saying I’d come back, but I never did.

To those who followed me while I was on my (very extended) blogging break and those who forgot I even existed in the blogosphere (probably all of you lol), hello! My name is Bella. I’m a teenage blogger, but I don’t even know if I can consider myself one anymore because I haven’t even touched this blog in six months.

Truthfully, I got busy. And kind of lazy. I was being overloaded with schoolwork this second semester and focused primarily on that so I could raise my cumulative GPA right before applying to college. And yeah, it paid off. I got a 4.5 GPA this past semester – the highest GPA I’ve ever gotten.

I also have just been busy with real life. I’ve been spending a lot of time with my family, friends, and boyfriend; I haven’t really had much time to sit down and type up a post.

However, after rereading some of my old posts tonight, as well as a casual comment from my little sister (“wouldn’t it be cool if you started a blog?”), I have decided to come back to the blogosphere. I’m not actually sure if I’ll be back (like I said, I’ve made a lot of promises but have yet to follow through), but here’s to hoping I will.

That being said, I have absolutely no idea what to blog about anymore. If anyone even reads this, please leave ideas on what you would want to hear from me. Thanks!

– Bella

Okay, Now I’m Back

Uh, hello? Is anyone still here? It’s me, Bella.

It has been almost two months since I’ve last touched this blog, after I said I would be back to writing consistently. I feel bad for not keeping my promise, but school is over for Christmas break, so now I can finally say I’m back and I will hopefully be consistent.

I’ve definitely missed this blog. I missed writing and I missed reading other people’s blogs and posts. I missed having an outlet to vent my thoughts and frustrations to.

The past few months have been nothing short of hectic, with school and life consuming every last bit of energy I had. There were days where I would get home at around 4 PM, start schoolwork, and not finish until 12 or 1 AM. There were also days where I would study hard for hours and still not get the grade I wanted on that test or quiz. Not to mention, the added pressures of maintaining a high GPA and getting good SAT scores and college stress and ugh. Junior year has screwed me over in every way possible.

The past few months haven’t been all that bad, though. There were some upsides to taking a break from the blog. I got to experience life without immediately thinking, “oh gosh, I better get home right away and blog about it.” My social life has been pretty eventful the past few months, and while I don’t feel like listing it all below, I may try to get some posts up in the near future.

One important thing worth mentioning, though, is the fact that I have a boyfriend now. And yes, writing that sentence was weird for me.

I don’t want to give too much away yet, because I’m planning on writing a post about him in a couple days. He is the boy I mentioned in the end of my last update post, so yes, things did work out between us. I’ve decided to name him Rock, because he is my rock – I can trust him, rely on him, and count on him for anything.

Anyways, its good to finally be back! I meant to participate in blogmas but I guess I’m too late now, lol. Here’s to hoping I’ll actually keep my promise this time.

– Bella

Well, This Is Awkward

Today is November 4. The last time I posted on this blog was on September 25. And of course, my last post included an apology for being inactive and hoping that it would not happen again. Oops.

Anyways, hello friends! Allow me to reintroduce myself; my name is Bella. I’m a teen blogger currently residing in the United States, and this post marks my official return to the blogosphere.

First of all, I just wanted to say that I truly am sorry for being absent this past month. I’ll admit, life got very hectic and I honestly did not have time to log onto my computer and check my blog. Things haven’t quite calmed down yet, but I truly miss blogging, so I will try my best to prioritize this blog more. 🙂

(Also, shoutout to Elm for sending me the loveliest email and checking up on me. I’ll admit, if I hadn’t seen her email, I probably would not be writing this update post at this very moment.)

I don’t want to make this post incredibly wordy, so I’ll just give a brief bullet-point summary of everything that happened in my life this past month while I was away. I’ll most likely do individual posts on some of these events in the near future.

  • I saw Oh Wonder live on the 28th of September with Flash; I didn’t get to finish the show (long story), but they were amazing live!
  • I started sponsoring a less fortunate child through an organization I discovered at a charity event in the beginning of October.
    • While I was at said charity event, I had an unfortunate experience in which I got cat-called by two grown men. It was absolutely disgusting.
  • Remember Forest? He attempted to reach out to me again and apologize. Being the nice person I am, I forgave the kid, but he wanted to “pick things up where they left off” and tried to get with me again, so I cut ties.
  • I attended my school’s homecoming game and dance, and had the best time with my friends!
  • Two of my friends who dated in the past, Dino and Egg, might be getting back together and its a really complicated situation that I somehow got stuck in the middle of.
  • My grades are slowly continuing to slip and I need to save them because I have finals in a few weeks but it is seemingly impossible. Any study tips are greatly appreciated.
  • Finally, I started talking to this guy (I don’t have a nickname yet), and I think things might actually work out between us. He’s an amazing guy, a great friend, and he definitely has boyfriend potential… I’ll definitely keep you guys updated.

I think that’s it for now; I’m glad to be back on WordPress, I’ve really missed everyone on here! I’ll try my best to catch up on blogs as soon as I can. 🙂

– Bella

How To Procrastinate

Hello friends! I just wanted to apologize for, once again, being inactive on the blogosphere as of late. I’ve been slacking off when it comes to reading blogs especially. I literally go on WordPress to write a post and then disappear until its time to write another post, and I apologize for that! I’m trying to manage my time wisely and prioritize my schoolwork right now, but hopefully soon I will be able to get back on track.

(Oh, and to all my Huffleposts – I am SO sorry I’ve been inactive when it comes to taking part in challenges… I’ll hopefully try to help out very soon!)

So, anyways, about my inactivity: I’ve been trying very hard to get back on track when it comes to school. A couple posts ago I mentioned that my grades were starting to slip, which I really don’t want to happen because that would continue to make me more sad and anxious. I know what I need to do in order to raise them, but for some reason, I’m just not motivated to.

Take this weekend, for example. I knew I was going to be busy this weekend, but I still wanted to make time to start doing some of my homework so I would be stressing as much. I laid out a whole schedule for all three days and everything!

Friday night, I was supposed to finish my Spanish homework after coming home from my high school football game (we lost, by the way). It wasn’t a lot of homework since I had already started it in class, and I wanted to just get it out of the way because it was busywork.

Instead of finishing my homework like I had originally planned, I got home on Friday night and slept. I was exhausted, and I told myself I would just get it done the next day.

On Saturday, I had to do my Spanish homework from Friday night, as well as finish reading the book I had to read for English. My English grade is the worst of them all (C+ at the time of writing), so I need to finish this book in order to pass my test this week. I had a Church meeting in the morning, and a school dance later that night, so I hoped to get all this work done at my friend Dino’s house in between the two events.

Do you know what I did instead of doing my work? I took a nap at Dino’s house, watched Netflix, and got ready for the dance. I regret not even attempting to work on anything, because I knew that I would be too tired to do homework after the dance, which leads us to today.

Not only do I have Spanish and English homework, but I also have to read and study for a history quiz tomorrow as well. I meant to be productive today, even though I had another Church thing in the afternoon, but that failed. I woke up late and then proceeded to put off my homework by watching YouTube videos and playing around with one of those Popin’ Cookin’ sets with my sister.

I got home tonight at around 8:30 and was able to finish my Spanish homework, but I have yet to start history and English. It is currently 11:53 PM. I don’t think sleep is in my future tonight… Wish me luck!

Oh, and any tips on how not to procrastinate would be greatly appreciated. 🙂

– Bella

Random Question Tag

Hello friends! Thank you to all who took the time to read my last post and reach out to me; I am so grateful for this lovely, supportive community. I am currently seeking help from a therapist or counselor, so hopefully things will get better soon.

I’m going to be busy this weekend and won’t have much time to blog, so I figured I would do a tag. I think they’re pretty entertaining to read, and they don’t take too much time for me to write. Thanks Jennie for nominating me to do this tag a little while ago; I’m a little late, but late is better than never!

Let’s get started, shall we?

  1. When is your birthday?
    December 21st, which is four days before Christmas!
  2. What are three of your favorite colors?
    Lavender, mint green, and navy blue.
  3. What are three of your favorite quotes?
    I have way too many, but they’re all either song lyrics I can’t think of or Bible verses. Here’s my three-day quote challenge from a while back if you’re actually curious to know what specific quotes I like.
  4. Are you addicted to YouTube?
    I used to be obsessed in seventh grade. I even met a few Youtubers at a meet-up once. I wouldn’t say I’m obsessed now, because I rarely go on. If I do go on, though, I’ll either be watching Buzzfeed videos or Ellen videos.
  5. What are 3 of your favorite shows on TV or YouTube or both?
    Friends, Parks and Recreation, and Stranger Things, which I just finished recently.
  6. What are 3 qualities you like in a best friend?
    Reliable, adventurous, and loyal.
  7. Do you like your name?
    Its a fairly common name, but yes, I do like it.
  8. If you have the choice to pick your own name, what will it be?
    I’ve always loved the name Nova. I regret not making my blogging alias Nova when I first started out.
  9. What is your fantasy dream?
    I dream about my 18th birthday a lot, since I’m throwing a huge, sweet-sixteen-style party.
  10. Do you wear make-up?
    Yes! I recently started wearing make-up regularly this school year; I don’t put on a full face, but my routine basically consists of concealer, foundation, mascara, and sometimes eyeliner if I’m feeling it.
  11. If you could write a book, what would the title be and what would it be about?
    I love to write, and I have so many story ideas! I actually have an idea right now; it would be called “Serendipity” and tell the story of six teenagers who, by a certain stroke of luck or fate, have good things happen to them. It’s kind of lame, but whatever.
  12. What makes you cry?
    I will literally cry at anything.
  13. What makes you angry?
    Seeing things like racism, sexism, and plain ignorance alive and well in today’s society makes me so angry.
  14. What makes you happy?
    New experiences.
  15. What is “fangirling”?
    Obsessing over a certain person or object and acting like their biggest fan, as if you knew everything about them.
  16. What are your three favorite snacks?
    Cookies, pizza bites, and fries.
  17. What are your three favorite foods?
    Mac n cheese, tacos, and rice.
  18. What are your three favorite drinks?
    Water, milk, and the iced caramel coconut macchiato from Starbucks.
  19. What are 10 random facts about yourself?
    Oh, man. I’m exhausted and I don’t think I can even think of 10. Let’s try:

    1. I’m left-handed.
    2. I have my own car, but I do not have my permit.
    3. I was actually born outside of the US and was able to move here when I was little.
    4. I once took a sewing class and made my own pajamas.
    5. I hate birds.
    6. Due to my baby face, many people have mistaken me for a 10-to-12 year olds.
    7. I might meet some of the cast of Stranger Things in a month.
    8. My parents are separated.
    9. I have been to six different places all over the United States in the span of a year.
    10. It is currently 11:22 PM here and I’m absolutely exhausted, even though I got my 8 hours.

My eyes are literally closing as I type this, so I’ll probably just end it first. Goodnight and goodbye, friends!

– Bella